Saturday, February 28, 2009

Bootleg Fantasia

I was startled to see

Me looking at me

While fully aware

I was not there

On my computer screen

This bootleg version

Is just a perversion

Of your will to succeed

This bootleg version

Is merely a rejection

Of why you cry and bleed

Is she strong enough to be a warrior queen

Does she know how to interpret your dreams

Can she pull the African Ankle trick

Or do her ministrations make you sick

Can her bunny jump higher

Will she go through the fire

To manifest what you need

Does her garden grow flowers

Or after a shower

All you can find are weeds

This bootleg version

Is such a perversion

Of what you really want

This bootleg version

May feed your urges

But leave your belly gaunt

Is she a sunshower

Is she a rainbow

Is she a moonbeam

Is she……………

Few know but all believe

Gabriel 24/7

Gabriel dreams all through the night

His broken wings incapable of flight

Try as he might

He never seems able to get it quite right

Gabriel awakes to greet the sun

Stumbles out of bed

And begins to hum

He mumbles then stalls

Never can remember what he’s trying to recall

Gabriel argues with the telephone man

Claims that he just cannot understand

When his phone rings

Why is he unable to hear the song she sings

Gabriel hungry for the fruit of life

Reaches to the branches of his tree of wife

He encounters the truth

His own pride and prejudice has poisoned the very root

Gabriel works hard each day

Trying to see that everything goes his way

Pay him no mind

He has yet to realize that his eyes have gone stone blind

Gabriel again prepares for bed

The wee small hours are what he most dreads

In his sleep

He reaches for her pillow and begins to weep

Dance Gabriel, Dance

Dance Gabriel, dance,

like a monkey half crazed sick

Pulling your dick trick for

any peanut she might roll out

take me to the ball game

so few and meager

her offerings you’ll accept

the neglect dreaming

one day soon?

She’ll swoon and realize

how GREAT THOU ART

Which is far if ever in the future

While those of us who nurture you in the present

are rewarded with contempt and scorn

For dreams unborn, aborted by the bitch

Which incidentally

is NOT me

Dance Gabriel, dance

waiting for your chance To prove

you can ROCK HER WORLD

Silly woman/ girl, knows nothing

of real time

or place or peace or spirit or love

For that matter, neither do you

of a thousand faces and moods,

and attitudes about nothing in

particular except everything

spectacular and what it means to you

Presenting yourself as a FOOL

pretending to be what you

Are not, cool, calculating, controlling,

upholding your Righteous Indignation

at the slightest provocation begging

for a fight, you a grown ass man refuses

to turn on the light only you can banish

the blight of soul crushing darkness where

fear gnaws at your belly with tiny razor teeth

disturbing your sleep, no wonder you don’t rest

well who could waiting

on the bell that death knell you so desire to

extinguish the fire of rage, at your age you should know

that girl is poison

sang bell biv Devoe

but you don’t understand

that girl is poison

but you don’t give a damn

you’ll swallow poison

wishing your enemy would die

the dream killer, the illicit thriller ah she taught you

well and to fix her ass you live and die

each night alone in hell

dance Gabriel……dance

Emotional Blackmale

Ain't you kinda old

For throwing such tantrums

Please acknowledge

My heart's not for ransom

You can bawl

And squall

And beat on the wall

From now till nevermind

I will never have the time

For emotional Blackmale

All you do is bitch and rail

Emotional Blackmale

Don't you know it always fails



Up behind me

I felt you creeping

Pretending to bring me love

You brought me grief in

Now take it back

I'm tired of your act

You've faked your last heart attack

I don't have to fall for that

From now till nevermind

I will never have the time

No, I'll never find the time

For Emotional Blackmale

All you do is bitch and rail

Emotional Blackmale

Don't you know you'll always fail

I Don’t Want No Girlfriend

I don’t want no girlfriend

Is what he says to me

Then wraps himself around my heart

And squeezes tenderly

I don’t want no girlfriend

He verbalized at noon

Then later on round midnight

Sends my spirit o’er the moon

I don’t want no girlfriend

He told me to my face

Then proceeds to shower me

With diverse gifts of grace

I don’t want no girlfriend

He speaks with such alarm

While reaching for my body

To cradle me in his arms

Well if he don’t want no girlfriend

Which he has made quite clear

If he don’t want no girlfriend

What am I doing here?


Contempt-plation

The sun rose in her eyes and set in her navel

Unable to adjust to the equation

Contemplation a fragile process of

How best to serve her needs

Cutting her weeds to see her garden grow

Didn’t you know the oak was poison

Oh ... you couldn’t see the forest for the trees

Please remind me again of the state

You were in when I arrived in your household

Your domain, your castle where with mop and broom

I scoured each room to remove her taint

Now ain’t it a shame you blame me

For she and we can not move

Forward on a groove

Cause you to busy looking back

At the misery so sweet

Pain so incomplete you thought

That was love?

My biggest mistake, I hate to admit

Was taking your shit and worshiping

The ground you walked on

That was wrong and foolish

Wish I could take it back

Stopped in my tracks confused

You used smoke and mirrors

To frighten me, to seduce me, to distract me

Attack me with my own excellence

Hence I no longer offer you my heart

Your art of war was to fashion weapons

Stolen from the bastions of my own armory

To strike me down in order

To gain ground in a battle waged against self

When wealth was at hand you began

To demand a return to poverty

So this may be the last time you and I talk

Got to walk over glass

Mourning the loss

Lay down the cross

Of unrequited love

Above all else

I must save myself

From drowning in your fears

The Shield

I was his shield

Against a mind field

Of haters, players,

And various naysayers

Now it seems

His valiant dreams

No longer include me

His tree of wife

With the key to life

Tucked safely in her womb

No more room!

The innkeeper lied

I still hear his cries

On moonlit nights

When the acoustics are right

He continues to fight

The sound of silence

His cycle of violence

I don’t want no girlfriend

From what I understand

He tore his ass

On a shard of glass

Off road in the badlands

Programmed to believe

In the bad seed